Motherhood + Grace

Ever since my sweet baby girl was born, I catch myself time after time trying to be perfect.

I want to have a daily set routine but of course it never goes as planned.

I want to plan our meals for the week ahead of time but I barely have time to cook.

I want to keep record of my daughters bottles/diapers/naps but I forget to write down a few and just give up.

I wanted to strictly breastfeed but for the sake of my physical, mental, and spiritual health, I needed to cut back.

I want a perfect Joanna Gaines style home but that’s not in our budget.

I wanted to keep my baby at work with me until she was a year old but I decided to send her to daycare because I was tired and struggling with work.

There are so many things I want to do to be the perfect Pinterest mom.

But being a perfect Pinterest mom is not what my husband and baby girl need…

They need a mama that will accept Jesus’ grace and extend it back towards them.

They need a mama who puts Jesus first.

They need a mama who takes care of them and doesn’t stress about having everything in order.

They need a mama that sets an example for their daughter.

They need a mama who’s in a good state of mind.

They need a mama who loves them unconditionally.

That’s the mama I want to be.

Motherhood is ________________.

HARD, like SO hard.

It didn’t really hit me that I was going to be a mom until they laid my baby girl on my chest. I looked up to my husband and said “we have a baby now”.

It wasn’t just me and him anymore. We have a tiny human we have to take care of. To be honest, I miss the time we had together by ourselves. I definitely took it for granted. If you don’t have children yet, soak up all the moments you have with just your husband. My husband and I are the sappy super in-love type of couple who tell each other “I love you” like every 30 seconds. Now, all my time is focused on our precious baby girl. Though I wouldn’t trade her for anything, I do wish I would have cherished every moment I had with my hubby.

Balancing a relationship with God, your husband, and your child is HARD and I wish someone would have told me that. My daughter is a month old and I’ve picked up my Bible once since she’s been born. Even though that makes me feel like a terrible Christian (another one of Satan’s lies) I try to give myself grace, just as Jesus would during this busy new season of life.

When the Lord gives you something wonderful, Satan is quick to try to steal your joy. He will fill your head with lies and make you think that you’re not a good mother, or that you need to throw in the towel with breast feeding, or that your husband isn’t attracted to you anymore. I have to remind myself that those are just lies from the enemy. My husband tells me almost everyday how good of a mother I am and that makes me feel a million times better.

Motherhood is also wonderful.

The first week of my daughters life, I cried every single day. I cried because she cried a lot, I cried because every time I thought I was gonna get some sleep, a doctor or nurse would come in, I cried because she was having a hard time breast feeding, I cried for no apparent reason, and lastly, I cried tears of joy because God blessed us with a healthy beautiful little girl. It’s hard to believe that my husband and I created such a perfect tiny human. Every night we just lay in bed and stare at her in awe of how great God is and how much we love her. All of her little sounds, movements, and facial expressions are what make our world go round.

Motherhood is a gift from God.

To me, there’s no better proof in the God of the universe than giving birth to a baby. And the fact that God chose ME of all the people in the world to be a mother just blows my mind.  There’s no one else in the world that can nurture my baby the way I can. There’s no one else in the world that can nurture your baby the way you can. We were all chosen specifically for our children to love them, care for them, and raise them to the best of our ability.
Motherhood is full of dirty diapers, no sleep, tears, spit up, piles of laundry, and showerless days but the best advice I can give you is:

Embrace motherhood and when times get hard give yourself grace, trust God, and remember that you were chosen by Him to be a mama